Charles Manson | Dakota Interview

OPERATOR: I have a collect call for Bill Dakota from Charles Manson, will you accept the call? 

DAKOTA: Yeh. 
Guard: Okay, Charles. 
MANSON: BILL? 

DAKOTA: Yeh. 

M: I can hardly hear you. 

D: Well, maybe it's a bad connection. 

M: Yeh. 

D: How are you doing? 

M: Okay. How you doing? 

D: Pretty good. 

M: Look here, I don't wanna...did you get Kishore's letter? 

D: Yeh. 

M: What I don't wanna do is get involved in no more publicty. You see, I know that's your game, publicity, right? 

D: Right. 

M: That's what's kept me locked down, kept me from getting to the main line. Now if I can get to the main line, then it's possible I might be able to help you with that book you want to write. Do you want to write a book? 

D: Well, I'm going to do a story but I don't know about a book. 

M: Well, what story do you want? 

D: Some of the stuff you wrote about. Something like that, you know? 

M: In Kishore's letter? 

D: Yeh. 

M: Well, that was a mistake that came to you. That was a joke. I had sent that to him along with a lot of other letters. He's been writing to people in Australia, people in Canada, people in England, Germany, all over. And he's been handling a big part of the mail, see, and helping me with this air and water project I got goin'. 

D: What project is that? 

M: Well, see when I was out there in the desert the last time, there was some flowers dying out there and I sat in a cell and I got to thinking that the bees that feed on them flowers died & nobody notices that see, because everybody's going back and forth to work and they're doing other jobs, see? Well, the job that needs to be done, nobody's on these jobs because they don't pay no money. The reason they don't pay no money is nobody even knows that they need to be done. Like when I was in the desert, I found this old fat rat in the water flow and it was contaminating the water. So, I had to go and clean the water up & take all of the trash out of the water, fix the water, come down and plant a few seeds, you dig? And pick up the air and water balance. Clean the water all the way to the ocean. That's why all of those whales are jumping on land. Cause the ocean's getting so bad, they can't live in it. You spend 150 years building a motor mind, building all that pollution, you can't just turn that pollution off cause people got to have that to live. They need motors for supermarkets, schools, churches. All them different things that society uses. But, at the same time, they've got to clean up that pollution. You know we've had our lives up for the last ten years and nobody wants to hear about it. See what I'm saying? It's got to be done, if we are to live on this earth. 

D: So, how are you doing now? 

M: Oh, pretty good. I've been writing a lot of letters and...walking. 

D: I talked with Mr. George (the prison program director) 

M: Yeh. 

D: And he said somebody mailed you a television set with a video-recorder. 

M: Right. 

D: Did he tell you about it? 

M; Yeh, and he won't let me have it. 

D: I'm going to write to the Governor and see if I can get it for you. 

M: I told the property man today, that I was going to send it back. 

D: Well, you should try to get it, because even if you don't use the video tape recorder.... 

M: Let me tell you what happened, OK? Some dummy out here on the main line wanted to impress some women. So, he got a tape recorder and he's play acting Daddy for her, you dig what I'm saying? And he tape recorded one of the guard's conversations and that put that thought on the bad side of the guards. And they think someone else may do that. You know? 

D: Yeh, but I think this is a video recorder, that's what I understood. 

M: No, no. What it is, is a portable JVC, it's a radio, television, cassette player trip. What I originaly wanted it for was to dictate letters because I can't spell cat. And my mind's not the same as your mind. You went to school. I didn't go to school. I didn't get past the third grade. But, that doesn't make me stupid. I'm not smart in your ways, you know, like money and ideas and stuff like that. I'm dumb in your ways, but in my ways--you know, like jail, you know jail right? You've been to jail before. So, you know me, I'm out on the handball court..I'm just trying to get to the main line where I can walk around and impress the fellas, bullshit a little bit and rap without all of this fear and this God damned paranoia they've created, and pushed off on me. 

D: George is trying to help you. 

M: I know that love. 

D: Because he's leaving your unit soon. 

M: Who's leaving? 

D: George. He's going to another unit. 

M: Yeh. 

D: And he's going to try to get you transferred and try it for a week or two and if there aren't any problems you'll be all set, you know? 

M: Do you have any friends in that spot? 

D: No, I don't know anybody there. 

M: Well, if I go, you've got one then, huh? 

D: Okay. 

M: You know what it's worth don't you? You know what a brother's worth? Your brother's your life ain't it? See, I was out there once and I looked back and seen my brothers in here, you dig it, and I seen the children out there and I thought God damn, you know, somebody's got to fix this, you know? Somebody's got to be right--here, you know? I asked George for this thing and he gave me permission to get it, then when it got in, he changed his mind, then he said I could and then he said I couldn't. And I told him, look all a man is, is his word. I'm not a tough guy. I can't beat you up and make you tell the truth. If you can't respect your job enough to tell the God damned truth without a fucking lot of bullshit, you dig what I'm saying? Then don't play act around me. It's a simple thing. I'm not saying I'm big or bad or tougher than anybody. Look, I'm a little teenie shit. 
D: I called him last night and I said why all the red tape? You know, I've been trying to call and he wants to call and he said, "Okay, I'll just by-pass all the other stuff and give him permission."

M: Well the last nine years they have dumped everything on me. See, when I got out last time, I didn't have all the publicity. You see I already walked twenty-two years off before I hit the street the last time. You see what I'm saying? In other words..I already dreamed out of this thought in 1967. That's what I tried to tell the Judge, but he was so much smarter than me, he wouldn't listen to what I had to say, see. That's why Nixon fell off the top. If Nixon would have been up on his stuff.... 

D: Did you know Jerry Rubin and Abby Hoffman? 

M: Yeh, Jerry Rubin. The guys who said, "Raise up and do it right now. Take a knife and go home and kill your Mother and Dad," all that kind of stuff? I got the blame for all that. That's why I am so mad see. In other words, I didn't tell them kids to do nothing, (referring to to the Tate killings), I said, do what you wanna do but don't get me busted. In other words, I don't care what you do, that's your business. I'm not a policeman. I'm an outlaw. So what they did, had nothing to do with me. Just don't go lying with me and messing with me and I won't go messing with you. It's the same law I live by in jail. It's just common sense. That's what the Judge should have been up on, but he wasn't up on it. He was up on the dollar bill, see. He was looking at all that money and I tried to explain to him, what good is all that money if you've got no water or no air? It's not just the local project of cleaning up the swimming pools, you see what Im saying? It's hundreds of years of abusing this land. It's not just a few years. It's a hundred years, piled so high that if a man don't start paying that debt back..into the earth balance, there isn't going to be nothing left. 

D: When did you get into this ecology thing? 

M: I've been into it all along. That's why Blue is called Blue, she is for the air and water. Red is called Red because she is for the wildlife. Green is called green because she is for the green things of the earth. But everyone got her and played her off into a rainbow and stuck her into a save the whale mission, you dig? Somebody else stuck somebody else off and pretty soon everybody's doing so many different things, nobody's doing nothing. Does that make sense? 

D: Yeh. 

M: So, they won't let me communicate. George thinks he's real keen or cool by keeping me from people I know. He don't realize they work for the same world he works for. Does that communicate? I don't have nothing against nobody. Everybody gets what they deserve. 

D: George has other people to answer to, he's part of that little thing, you know? Like he's got people above him.... 

M: Look. Look. I've been in a penitentiary all my life. I know who's up above him and who tells him what to do. I understand he's got laws and regulations and rules to live by. All I'm trying to get him to do, Bill, is to live by his own laws and regulations and rules to live by. If you don't live by your laws, how do you expect criminals to live by theirs? Everybody's got to live by the law, or nobody lives by the law. That's what I told the Judge, I said, "Look here, son. If you don't realize that it's a unified thing. It isn't just one guy trying to get over for something. I don't want no money or anything. All I'm trying to do is clean up my earth and my children, for me. And, I see that's life on earth. Now as many people as you want to get into there, is okay with me. I don't deny nobody living. Why do they deny me? I never hurt nobody. I never killed nobody. I told that Judge that I could have proved to him in that court, that I never broke the law. I told him that and he said, "Well, we can't cheat these people out of their entertainment." "I'm not trying to entertain you," and I said, "it's going ot be bigger than entertainment. I'm trying to tell them something... 

D: I think Tex..... 

M: (Interrupted by the guard) Bill, I've only got one minute left, go on now. 

D: I think Tex Watson's book is what hurt you but that's neither here nor there now. You said something in your last letter, you were mentioning people... 

M: Yeh. 

D: You said something about Nancy Sinatra's daughter. 

M: Oh yeh. She was at a party. 

D: Which daughter? 

M: I don't know. See, I've never been impressed by them people. I've been in all those people's houses. They are just other people to me. Nobody impresses me. How are you going to impress me? I'm impressed by kindness. I'm impressed by truth and harmony. You see what I'm saying? 

D: Yeh. Then what you put in your letters is true? 

M: What? 

D: Whatever you write to me is true, right? 

M: Look here, Bill. I went this far with the truth. If I lie now I'm pot bound. I can't take a chance on lying now. In other words, my kid's life depends on that. I'm working for my child. Because I feel that a man's love is for his child. 

D: Where's your son now? 

M: (interrupted by guard)..I've got to go now Bill. 

D: I'll write you later. 

M: Easy now. 

It is common knowledge today that Manson does have a son. The last I heard, it is rumored that a drummer in a Hollywood group band, is Manson's son. 

Manson was into ecology thirty or more years ago. And what he said about Jane Fonda, getting into three way sex, was proven to be true by her own book. Manson seems to be telling the truth and isn't so dumb after all. 

Charles Manson's Home on the Range

The horse wrangler, tall and ruggedly handsome, placed his hands on the hips of a pretty girl wearing white bell-bottomed trousers and casually lifted her onto a hitching post near the stable; then, voluntarily, almost automatically, she spread her legs and he stood between her, moving slowly from side to side and up and down, stroking her long blonde hair while her arms and fingers caressed his back, not quickly or eagerly but quite passively, indolently, a mood harmonious with his own

They continued their slow erotic slumber for several moments under the mid-morning sun, swaying silently and looking without expression into one an other’s eyes, seeming totally unaware of their own lack of privacy and the smell of horse manure near their feet and the thousands of flies buzzing around them and the automobile that had just come down the dusty road and was now parked, motor idling, with a man inside calling through an open window to where the wrangler stood between the girl.

He slowly turned his head toward the car but did not withdraw from the girl. He was about six feet four and wore a bone-like ornament around his neck, and he had a long angular face with a sandy beard and pale sharply focused blue eyes. He did not seem perturbed by the stranger in the automobile; he assumed that he was probably a reporter or detective, both having come in great numbers recently to this ranch in Southern California to speak with the proprietor, an old man named George Spahn, about a group of violent hippies that had lived on the ranch for a year but were now believed to have all moved away.

Spahn was not reluctant to talk about them, the wrangler knew, even though Spahn had never seen them, the old man being blind; and so when the man in the car asked for George Spahn, a little smile formed on the wrangler’s face, knowing but enigmatic, and he pointed toward a shack at the end of a row of dilapidated empty wooden buildings. Then, as the car pulled away, he again began his slow movements with the girl delicately balanced on the hitching post.

Spahn’s ranch is lost in desert brush and rocky hills, but it is not so much a ranch as it is the old Western movie set it once was. The row of empty buildings extending along the dirt road toward Spahn’s shack—decaying structures with faded signs marking them as a saloon, a barbershop, a café, a jail, and a carriage house—all were constructed many years ago as Hollywood settings for cowboy brawls and Indian ambushes, and among the many actors who performed in them, or in front of them, were Tom Mix and Johnny Mack Brown, Hoot Gibson, Wallace Beery, and The Cisco Kid. In the carriage house is a coach that supposedly was used by Grace Kelly in High Noon, and scattered here and there, and slept in by the stray dogs and cats that run wild on this land, are old wagons and other props used in scenes in Duel in the Sun, The Lone Ranger television series and Bonanza. Around the street set, on the edge of the clearing near the trees, are smaller broken-down shacks lived in by wranglers or itinerants who drift to this place periodically and work briefly at some odd job and then disappear. There is an atmosphere of impermanence and neglect about the place, the unwashed windows, the rotting wood, the hauling trucks parked on inclines

because their batteries are low and need the momentum of a downhill start; and yet there is much that is natural and appealing about the place, not the ranch area itself but the land in back of where the old man lives, it being thick with trees and berry bushes and dipping toward a small creek and rising again toward the rocky foothills of the Santa Susanna Mountains. There are a few caves in the mountains that have been used from time to time as shelters by shy vagrants, and in the last few years hippies have sometimes been seen along the rocky ridges strumming guitars and singing songs. Now the whole area is quiet and still and, though it is only twenty miles northwest of downtown Beverly Hills, it is possible from certain heights to look for miles in any direction without seeing any sign of modern life.

Spahn came to this region in the ’30s in the first great migration of the automobile age, a time when it was said to be the dream of every Midwestern Model T salesman to move to sunny Southern California and live in a bungalow with a banana plant in the front yard. Except George Spahn had no such dream, nor was he a Midwestern Model T salesman. He was a fairly successful dairy farmer from Pennsylvania with a passion for horses, preferring them to cars and to most of the people that he knew. The fact that his father had been kicked to death by a horse, an accident that occurred in 1891 when the elder Spahn was delivering slaughtered livestock in a horse-drawn wagon near Philadelphia, did not instill in the son any fear of that animal; in fact, Spahn quit school after the third grade to work behind a horse on a milk wagon, and his close association with horses was to continue through the rest of his life, being interrupted by choice only once.

That was during his sixteenth year when, temporarily tired of rising at 3 a.m. for his daily milk route, he accepted a job as a carpenter’s apprentice, living in the carpenter’s home and becoming in time seduced by the carpenter’s lusty 19-year-old daughter. She would entice him into the woods beyond the house on afternoons when her father was away, or into her bedroom at night after her father had gone to sleep; and even, one day, observing through her window two dogs copulating in the yard, she was suddenly overcome with desire and pulled Spahn to the floor on top of her—all this happening when he was 16, in 1906, a first sexual relationship that he can remember vividly and wistfully even now at the age of 81.

Though never handsome, Spahn was a strong solidly built man in his youth with a plain yet personable manner. He had a hot temper at times, but he was never lazy. When he was in his middle twenties his milk business in Willow Grove, Pennsylvania, was large enough for him to operate five wagons and seven horses; and one of the men whom he employed, more out of kindness than anything else, was his stepfather, Tom Reah, whom he had once despised. Spahn could never understand what his strict German-Irish mother had ever seen in Reah, a raw-boned man with a large belly who, when drunk, could be vicious. When in this condition, Reah would sometimes assault young Spahn, beating him badly; although later Spahn fought back, once swearing at Reah: “You son of a bitch, I’m gonna kill you some day!” On another occasion he threw an ice ax at Reah’s head, missing by inches.

Before Spahn was 30 he had obtained an 86-acre farm near Lansdale, Pennsylvania, on which he kept 35 cows, several horses, and a lady housekeeper he had hired after placing an advertisement in a local newspaper. She had previously been married to a racing-car driver who had been killed, leaving her with one child. Spahn found her congenial and able, if not reminiscent of the carpenter’s daughter; and at some later date that Spahn cannot remember, they were married. While it would not be an entirely happy or lasting marriage, they would remain together long enough to have ten children, nearly all of whom would be named after Spahn’s horses. He named his first daughter, Alice, after a yellow-white pinto he had once owned; and his second daughter, Georgianna, was named in honor of a gelding called George. His third daughter, Mary, was named after a big bay mare; and when Spahn had a son, he named him George after himself and the aforementioned gelding. Next came Dolly, after a big sorrel mare; and Paul, after a freckled pinto; and so on down the line.

During the early ’30s, in the Depression, Spahn contemplated moving West. Animal feed was scarce in Pennsylvania, the milk was frequently spoiled by the inadequate refrigeration system on his farm, and he was becoming dis-enchanted with life in general. In an advertisement circulated by the Union Pacific Railroad, he had read about the virtues of Southern California, its predictable and mild climate, its lack of rain in summertime, its abundant feed for animals, and he was tempted. He first came alone by train to see Southern California for himself; then, satisfied, he returned home. He sold his farm and packed his family, his furniture, and his horse collars in a Packard sedan and a truck, and shipped his best horses separately by rail. He began the long voyage across the continent. He would not regret his decision.

Within a few years, giving up the milk business to concentrate on raising horses and operating a riding stable, he prospered. Within a decade, moving from Long Beach to South Los Angeles, and then to North Hollywood, he expanded his business to include children’s pony rides, the rental of horses for parades and fairs, and the supplying of horses and wranglers for use in cowboy films. In one movie that featured a desert battle between Arabs and Ethiopians, Spahn himself became part of the cast, playing an Arab horseman and wearing a desert robe and white bloomers. In 1948, when one of the ranches used by the moviemakers was offered for sale, a ranch once owned by William S. Hart, a cowboy star of the silent screen, Spahn bought it. Spahn and his wife parted company at about this time, but there soon appeared at Spahn’s side a new leading lady of the ranch, a onetime dog trainer and circus performer named Ruby Pearl.

She was a perky redhead of about 30 with lively blue eyes, a petite figure, and lots of nerve. She had been born on a farm in Sandstone, Minnesota, and had a desire to get into show business somehow, an ambition that was as confusing as it was shocking to her mother, a Christian preacher’s daughter, and her father, a conscientious routine-oriented railroad man. After graduating from high school, where she had acted in school plays and had won first prize in the girls’ hundred-yard dash and broad-jump competition in a county-wide track meet, she traveled to Minneapolis on her father’s railroad pass, presumably to attend secretarial school and embark on a respectable career in that city. But one day, scanning the classified ads in The Minneapolis Tribune, she saw a job opportunity that appealed to her. She applied and got the job, that of being a cocktail waitress at Lindy’s, a local club patronized by, among other distinguished figures, Al Capone.

When Capone and his men were in town they were invariably accompanied by very attractive girls in ermine or mink, and they were always given the large table at Lindy’s in the back room where the drinks were served all night. Ruby Pearl liked serving the big table, not only because of the generous tips she received but because of the sense of excitement she felt in the Capone party’s presence. But she had neither the desire nor the time to become further involved, devoting all her free hours and earnings to the dancing school she attended every day, learning ballet and adagio, tap-dancing, the rumba, and the tango. After Lindy’s was raided by the police and closed down, Ruby Pearl supported herself as a bus girl in a cafeteria, pouring coffee and clearing dishes. Soon she caught the eye of the assistant manager, an engineering student at the University of Minnesota. He became her first lover and husband, and after his graduation he was hired by Lockheed in Burbank, California, and the newly married couple set up housekeeping in a motor court on the fringe of Hollywood.

On certain evenings, together with other young engineers from Lockheed and their wives, Ruby and her husband would go to The Brown Derby and Ciro’s and various night spots where there was live entertainment and dancing. Ruby invariably became restless and tense on these occasions, seated around the table with the others, sipping her drink, and wishing that she was not with the dull wives of engineers but rather that she was in the spotlight on the stage, kicking up her heels.

Her marriage did not produce children, nor did she want any. She wanted to resume with her dancing, and she did, attending classes conducted by a sleek French-Indian adagio dancer who later gave Ruby a part in his touring trio that featured himself and his jealous girlfriend. Ruby also danced in a chorus of a Hollywood club for a while, as her marriage deteriorated and finally ended in divorce.

At about this time, approaching an age when she could no longer maintain a dancer’s pace, she was introduced, by a man she had met, to a new career of training dogs to dance, sit, jump through hoops, and ride atop ponies. She had a natural facility for animal training, and within a few years she had perfected an act with three dogs and a pony that was booked at several community fairs in Southern California, in addition to a number of schools, circuses, and local television shows. At one community fair, in Thousand Oaks, Ruby met a man, a wrestler, who would become her next husband. He was a burly, strong, and tender man who had done quite well financially, and he also owned a restaurant on the side, a subject of interest to Ruby because of her days as a waitress. Not long afterward, Ruby met another man with whom she had much in common, a proprietor of a pony-riding ring for children and a movie ranch—George Spahn.

She had seen Spahn at a few of the parades for which he had provided horses, and on a few occasions she had helped with the handling of the horses, displaying her skill as a wrangler. After Spahn had obtained the movie ranch, Ruby applied for a job there and was hired. Spahn was happy to have her. His eyesight was not yet so poor that he was unaware of her fine figure and appeal, and he also welcomed the return of a woman’s touch around the place, for it had been absent since the recent departure of his wife. There was not only the film

business but also the riding stable that required extra help, particularly on weekends when there would sometimes be a long line of cars with people wanting to rent a horse and go riding through the woods for an hour or two. Ruby knew the horses well, knew the frisky ones from the slower ones, and she could tell pretty much by the way people walked up to the riding stable whether or not they possessed the coordination to safely mount and ride Spahn’s better horses. Ruby Pearl was also important to Spahn because she could keep an eye on the young wranglers’ manners with regard to the schoolgirls and other young women who often rented horses, although he had to admit that some of the women seemed deliberately dressed for a seduction scene when they came to the ranch—skintight chinos and no bras, their long hair loose and legs wide and bumping up and down as they capered through the woods—it was a risky business.

But Ruby Pearl kept order, and the more responsibility she took the more Spahn relied upon her. His children were now grown and married. Occasionally, Ruby would spend the night on the ranch, and as Spahn’s sight worsened in the next few years she accompanied him on shopping trips off the ranch, held him close as they climbed steps, guided his hand as he signed checks, dialed telephone numbers for him, helped to prepare his meals. There were rumors in the nearby town, and among the ranch hands, that associated the pair romantically, and once her husband, the wrestler, complained about the time she was devoting to the ranch. But she quickly dismissed the subject, saying sharply, “I’m needed there.”

In the last few years, however, Spahn gradually began to notice changes in Ruby Pearl. Slowly, as his sight failed completely and his imagination sharpened, he began to think that she was drifting away from the ranch and himself. He began to notice a difference in the way she held his arm as they walked— she seemed to be holding on more to the cloth of his sleeve than to his arm, and eventually it seemed that she was leading him around while holding only to the cloth. He began to miss, or to imagine he was missing, many of the things he once had, among them the presence of female voices on the ranch at night. Perhaps that is why, when the hippie girls arrived, even though they were often noisy and sang songs all night, he felt more alive than he had felt in a very long time.

He does not remember exactly when they first moved onto the ranch. He believes one group of hippie girls and boys arrived sometime in 1967, possibly having come down from San Francisco, and settled briefly in a roadside church several miles north of his ranch; and eventually, in their wanderings down the hill searching for food, they discovered the many empty shacks along the riding path in the woods. They lived in the shacks briefly, and Spahn did not object; but one morning there was a police raid in search of marijuana, and many of the young people were taken into custody. The police asked if Spahn wished to press charges, but he said he did not. The police nonetheless warned the hippies against trespassing, and for a long time it was again very quiet on the ranch at night.

Then one day a school bus carrying hippies arrived at the ranch and parked in the woods, and young girls approached Spahn’s doorway, tapping lightly on the screen, and asked if they could stay for a few days. He was reluctant, but when they assured him that it would be only for a few days, adding that they had had automobile trouble, he acquiesced. The next morning Spahn became aware of the sound of weeds being clipped not far from his house, and he was told by one of the wranglers that the work was being done by a few long-haired girls and boys. Later, one of the girls offered to make the old man’s lunch, to clean out the shack, to wash the windows. She had a sweet, gentle voice, and she was obviously an educated and very considerate young lady. Spahn was pleased.

In the days that followed, extending into weeks and months, Spahn became familiar with the sounds of the other girls’ voices, equally gentle and eager to do whatever had to be done; he did not have to ask them for anything, they saw what had to be done, and they did it. Spahn also came to know the young man who seemed to be in charge of the group, another gentle voice who explained that he was a musician, a singer and poet, and that his name was Charlie Manson. Spahn liked Manson, too. Manson would visit his shack on quiet afternoons and talk for hours about deep philosophical questions, subjects that bewildered the old man but interested him, relieving the loneliness. Sometimes after Spahn had heard Manson walk out the door, and after he had sat in silence for a while, the old man might mutter something to himself— and Manson would reply. Manson seemed to breathe soundlessly, to walk with unbelievable silence over creaky floors. Spahn had heard the wranglers tell of how they would see Charlie Manson sitting quietly by himself in one part of the ranch, and then suddenly they would discover him somewhere else. He seemed to be here, there, everywhere, sitting under a tree softly strumming his guitar. The wranglers had described Manson as a rather small, dark-haired man in his middle 30s, and they could not understand the strong attraction that the six or eight women had for him. Obviously, they adored him. They made his clothes, sat at his feet while he ate, made love to him whenever he wished, did whatever he asked. He had asked that the girls look after the old man’s needs, and a few of them would sometimes spend the night in his shack, rising early to make his breakfast. During the day they would paint portraits of Spahn, using oil paint on small canvases that they had brought. Manson brought Spahn many presents, one of them being a large tapestry of a horse.

He also gave presents to Ruby Pearl—a camera, a silver serving set, tapestries—and once, when he said he was short of money, he sold her a $200 television set for $50. It was rare, however, that Manson admitted to needing money, although nobody on the ranch knew where he got the money that he had, having to speculate that he had been given it by his girls out of their checks from home, or had earned it from his music. Manson claimed to have written music for rock-and-roll recording artists, and sometimes he was visited at the ranch by members of the Beach Boys and also by Doris Day’s son, Terry Melcher. All sorts of new people had been visiting the ranch since Manson’s arrival, and one wrangler even claimed to have seen the pregnant movie actress Sharon Tate riding through the ranch one evening on a horse. But Spahn could not be sure.

Spahn could not be certain of anything after Manson had been there for a few months. Many new people, new sounds and elements, had intruded so quickly upon what had been familiar to the old blind man on the ranch that he could not distinguish the voices, the footsteps, the mannerisms as he once had; and without Ruby Pearl on the ranch each night, Spahn’s view of reality was largely through the eyes of the hippies or the wranglers, and he did not know which of the two groups was the more bizarre, harebrained, hallucinatory. He knew that the wranglers were now associating with the hippies; he could hear them talking together during the day near the horse corral, and at night he thought he recognized wranglers’ voices in the crowd that had gathered to hear Manson’s music in the café of the old Western movie set. The hippies were wearing Western clothes and boots and were riding the horses, he had heard; and perhaps the motorcycle sounds he heard in the morning were being made by wranglers, he did not know. The atmosphere was now a blend of horse manure and marijuana, and most of the people seemed to speak in soft voices, wranglers as well as hippies, and this greatly irritated the old man. He yelled toward them, “Speak up, speak up, I want to hear, too!” They would speak up, but in tones still soft and placid; and Spahn often overheard them describing him as a “beautiful person.”

None of Spahn’s experience in life had prepared him for this; he was thoroughly confused by Manson and his followers, yet was pleasantly distracted by their presence and particularly fascinated by Manson’s girls. They would do anything that Manson asked, anything, and their submissiveness was in sharp contrast to all the women that Spahn had ever known, beginning with his stern mother in Pennsylvania and extending through the carpenter’s aggressive daughter, and the un-timid housekeeper who became his wife, and the independent woman who was Ruby Pearl. Manson’s girls, intellectually superior to all the women that George Spahn had known, were also more domestic: they liked to cook, to clean, to sew, to make love to Manson or to whomever he designated. 

On occasions when Manson was in Spahn’s shack, the old man tried to learn the secret of Manson’s handling of women, but the latter would mostly laugh—“All you gotta do, George, is grab ’em by the hair, and kick ’em you know where”—and then Manson would be gone, his secret unexplained, and the girls would arrive, docile, delightful.

Abruptly, it ended.

Manson and his followers left the ranch in their bus one day, going as mysteriously as they had come, and for a while the old man’s life reverted to what it had been. But then the police and detectives began to visit the ranch, inspecting the movie shacks where the hippies had lived, taking fingerprints and even digging large holes in the woodlands beyond the clearing in search of bodies. Then the reporters and television cameramen arrived, flashing light into Spahn’s face that was so bright he could see it, and asking him questions about Charlie Manson and his “family” who were now charged with murdering Sharon Tate and several others. Spahn was stunned, disbelieving, but he told them what he knew. He sat in his shack for several hours with the press, slumped in a chair, holding a cane in one hand and a small dog in the other, wearing a soiled tan Stetson and dark sunglasses to protect his head and eyes from the flies and the light and the dirt and the flicking tails of his horses, and he answered the reporters’ questions and posed for photographs. Hanging from the wall behind him, or resting on the mantel, were psychedelic portraits of him done by the girls, and on a nearby table was a guitar, and on another wall was the tapestry of a horse that Manson had given him.

For the next several days, with the television cameras on trucks focusing on the ranch, lighting up the rickety Hollywood sets, it was like old times for Spahn. Ruby Pearl was there to lead him around, although still holding him by the cloth of his sleeve, and his picture appeared on television and his words were quoted in the national press. He said that it was hard for him to believe that the girls had participated in the murders; if they had, he continued, they were undoubtedly under the influence of drugs.

As for Manson, Spahn said, there was no explanation—he had a hypnotic spell over the girls, they were his slaves. But Spahn was reluctant to say too much against Manson; and when the reporters asked why this was so, Spahn confessed that he was somewhat fearful of Manson, even though the latter was in jail. Manson might get out, Spahn suggested, or there might still be people on the ranch who were loyal to him.

The reporters did not press Spahn further. After they had finished with their questions, they wandered around the ranch taking photographs of the movie set and the soft-spoken wranglers and the girl who stood near the hitching post. 

ATWA for Life, ATWAR for Survival

A PLAN TO BALANCE OUR LIVES

This is a list to help anyone who needs it or wants it, you have all the information you need to do whatever you feel is right. Resources will come when energy and will are put in the right places My thought in writing this is that a few people might appreciate it and utilize it.


SELF - Start with yourself -  work on your health, balance your mind, body and soul. Clean up the pollution within  your self.. Fight your bad habits, addictions and break your patterns. Balance your diet. Make a list of everything in your life and home that needs change. Get focused - choose something to focus on, the easiest way to do this is to follow your heart. Where do you want to see change in the world? What moves you? Then figure what you are good at and match it with what makes you  enjoy doing that can be beneficial to connect with nature and nourishes your soul. Put your focus into the natural world.

FAMILY- once you have worked on yourself and center yourself in nature you can begin to work  with your family. Learn about your roots, your ancestry, connect with your people and their traditions.  Build genuine connections with family members or, you may have to disconnect from certain family members. 

HOME & GARDEN - Start an organic garden - Gardening and all the things you will learn about life, death, regeneration and yourself. Gardening brings us to oneness. Raise animals - A few chickens can give you eggs for breakfast everyday and they are one of the best additions to any garden.  Learn natural building, carpentry using recycled material.  Buy used or vintage items when you need something, do you everything you can to not be wasteful. Illuminate as much plastic as you can from your life, this can be difficult. Don't waste energy keep the lights off when you can and just use light where you are. Learn to sew and mend. When you know how to sew, patch, darn and knit you can make your own simple clothing, blankets and curtains which can last a life time.

NEIGHBORHOOD, COMMUNITY- walk as much as possible or ride a bike. Rideshare or take public transportation. Find like-minded people that you can work with, people that share your ideals and interests. Get involved in local environmental, nature or art groups. Join a spiritual or religious community. Take a class or teach one.

COUNTY & STATE - Once you move to this level you are reaching into a leadership role. For many people it's difficult to stay true to your convictions past  this level.

 NATION

CONTINENT 

HEMISPHERE 

WORLD

UNIVERSE


Please share your ideas and let me know what needs to be included here...

-Walking Hawk